coming home

oye!..i miss my room, the shower, net, TV,sofa..Daniel, my room...the computer, mother's cooking, daniel, salve, mom,...blahblahblah

pics!!!weepee

SORRIES

i can't answer your comments right now..i'm too busy (x_x)

home bound

oye!..i'm finally home and waiting for the ONLY show i can watch the whole duration of my college weeks..darn it..our dormitory only provides bedspace so that means, if we (kat, mia, joy, me) don't bring TV's, radios and electric fans, we'll have to live our first sems blabbing with each other. and that was how we spent our first week.

Mia and I talked non stop last night. We've been talking about our friends and love interests when we realized it was already 1 in the morning..lol..we finally forced ourselves to go to sleep.

We woke up all drowsy and went to school late..

The SO CALLED first day

Oye!....it turns out that classes doesn't start today..so we were left to wonder off at noon under the scorching heat of the sun. We finally sat at the Co Ed's Garden because it has benches under the shades of trees..

we also visited our old classmate's dormitories..turns out that there dorms are the freaky old types,haha...I actually entered the land lady's son's room...urgh (x_x)

so many misadventures today...
our keys are held by the landlady and unfortunately, after going to the market, the keys were nowhere to be found..we did all possible means of opening the damn door..we used pins,cards, our bodies squished on window panes to reach the indoor part of the door..but of no avail..then it turns out that the keys were on one of the rooms downstairs..haha...what the ----


also,we cooked our own meal..aww, no more take outs from now on

so, our meal was kinda so so...i had more fun cooking than eating the cabbage..haaaaaaaay..

also, my textmate sent me another load..weepee!...lucky me..haha

The College Bound

finished packing the remainder of my stuff last night...i'm finally staying at my dorm,haha..wish us luck..only Kathleen knows how to really cook..aww...how will we feed ourselves!!!!!!!

Our opening day is still uncertain..some say it will be on the 12th, others, on the 13th..but whatever...our college building is just a few blocks away from our dorm so if classes won't start tomorrow, i'll be back in my bed in no time,haha!


by the way,the craziest thing happened to me at Cindy's..

Salve, my sister, and I were drinking our Red Coolers (which was supposed to be a take out, along with our hotdog sandwiches) and we were chatting away...I was talking about Martte's friends when she asked this VERY lame question that made me laugh..and guess what..











I spat out what I was drinking..nyahahahha...the gentleman on the next table was kind though,he didn't laugh..but that doesn't matter..we were the ones who attracted the other costumers because we were laughing soooooooo loud...that was so embarassing,haha...

:))

though that was fun,haha, i'll be using my white sling bag on my first week of college because the red coolers that spat out of my mouth (lol...gross..lol) stained my brown shoulder bag..i was supposed to use that bag,darn..






expect to here from me next week...i don't have a laptop at our dorm and i DON'T GO INTO NET CAFE's...so i'll have to wait to go home on Saturday before i post again..



(^_^)

Don't Matter by Akon

Oh
Ohoohwooe
Oooh
Ooohhwooe

Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Cause we gon' fight
Oh yes we gon' fight
Believe we gon' fight
Fight for our right to love yeah
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you

Nobody wanna see us together
Nobody thought we last forever
I feel them hopin' and prayin'
Things between us don't get better
Men steady comin' after you
Women steady comin' after me
Seems like everybody wanna go for self
And don't wanna respect boundaries
Tellin' you all those lies
Just to get on your side
But I must admit there was a couple secrets
I held inside
But just know that I tried
To always apologize
And I have you first always in my heart
To keep you satisfied

Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you
Cause we gon' fight
Oh yes we gon' fight
Believe we gon' fight
Fight for our right to love yeah
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you

you Got every right to wanna leave
you Got every right to wanna go
you Got every right to hit the road
And never talk to me no more
You don't even have to call
Even check for me at all
cuz' the way I been actin' lately
Has been off the wall
Especially towards you
Puttin' girls before you
And they watchin' everything I been doin'
Just to hurt you
Most of it just ain't true
And they won't show you
How much of a queen you are to me
And why I love you baby

Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Cause we gon' fight
Oh yes we gon' fight
Believe we gon' fight
Fight for our right to love yeah
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you

Oh oh oh oh oh Oh
Cause I got you
Cause I got you
Ooooh
Cause I got you
Cause I got you

Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you
Cause we gon' fight
Oh yes we gon' fight
Believe we gon' fight
Fight for our right to love yeah
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you
Nobody wanna see us together
but it dont matter no
Cause I got you
cause we gon' fight
oh yes we gon' fight
believe we gon' fight
fight for our right to love yeah
Nobody wanna see us together
but it dont matter no
Cause I got you

The World's Hatred

John 15:18-16:4

If the people of this world hate you, just remember that they hated me first. If you belonged to the world, its people would love you. But you don't belong to the world. I have chosen you to leave the world behind, and that is why its people hate you. Remember how I told you that servants are not greater than their master. So if people mistreat me, they will mistreat you. If they do what I say, they will do what you say.

People will do to you exactly what they did to me. They will do it because you belong to me, and they don't know the one who sent me.

If I had not come and spoken to them, they would not be guilty of sin. But now they have no excuse for their sin.

Everyone who hate me also hates my Father. I have done things that no one else has ever done. If they had not seen me do these things, they would not be guilty. But they did see me do these things, and they still hate me and my Father too. That is why the Scriptures are true when they say, "People hated me for no reason."

I will send you the Spirit who comes from the Father and shows what is true. The Spirit will help you and will tell you about me. Then you will also tell others about me, because you have been with me from the begining.

I am telling you this to keep you from being afraid. You will be chased out of the synagogues. And the time will come when people will kill you and think they are doing God a favor. They will do these things because they don't know either the Father or me. I am saying this to you now, so that when the time comes, you will remember what I have said.





In this Gospel, Jesus was the one talking..
I posted this for those people who have felt rejection and is rejected right now. This scripture has helped me a lot.. Now, even though I feel left out, I know that greater things will soon come my way..

(^_^)

Lover's Lane (a poem i made last December)

Lover's Lane

Songs from the past won't make it less real,
So why still make it a big deal?
Starlight and magical feelings will soon fade,
And you'll be trapped on a carousel maze.

Yes this is the ride of a homeless journey,
To keep on moving to reach the bounty.
Where Lover's LAne will soon end?
Noone knows until they reach the next bend.

So my little girl, keep ti up.
Never lose till you reach the last drop.
You've chosen this path of no candy canes,
Welcome to the Lover's Lane.

















*5 months later: I didn't knew where the end would take me, but i tried. and here i am now. I've reached the end.

oha oha..this is my song!..oye!

There was a time I packed my dreams away.
Living in a shell, hiding from myself.

There was a time when I was so afraid.
I thought I'd reached the end,
But baby that was then
I am made of more than my yesterdays.

This is my now, and I am breathing in the moment.
As I look around
I can't believe the love I see.
My fears behind me, gone are the shadows and doubts
That was then, this is my now.





hehe, this song was posted on our yahoo groups.. (^_^)


i'm going to download acoustic songs later..any suggestions?

texting arbie while listening to this song (^_^)

Frente
Bizarre Love Triangle

Every time I think of you
I get a shot right through Into a bolt of blue
It's no problem of mine
But it's a problem I find
Living the life that I can't leave behind
There's no sense in telling me
The wisdom of a fool won't set you free
But that's the way that it goes
And it's what nobody knows
And every day my confusion grows
Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for the final moment
You say the words that I can't say

I feel fine and I feel good
I feel like I never should
Whenever I get this way
I just don't know what to say
Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday
I'm not sure what this could mean
I don't think you're what you seem
I do admit to myself
That if I hurt someone else
Then I'll never see just what we're meant to be

Every time I see you falling I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for the final moment
You'll say the words that I can't say
Everytime I see you fallingI'll get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for the final moment
You'll say the words that I can't say

wow, this song is OUR song..i've just realized it as i read its lyrics.. i wasn't paying attention to the song's content a while ago..

Arbie is in Baguio right now, and we're texting about our future college life: units, dorms, and the like..i actually miss him,hehe...

i dreamt of him and my classmate's last night. we were in a bus transit and our class' dance song was played.. Everyone were dancing and rb was the crowd's favorite,hehe

Could have beens

nothing beats a good song after a day of shopping,haha...

frio - could have been

If only I could turn back the time
When all the words we say we can make it rhyme
I just can’t get you off my mind
I can only smile when you were mine

[Refrain]
I’ve been waiting for you all night long
Gotta listen to your voice on the phone

[Chorus]
Could have been a perfect love
I’m still tryin’
I know you’ve lost your faith in me
Now I’m cryin’
I know I’ve been such a fool
I’ve been blinded
Can we just get back to where we’ve started
‘Cause I missed your grip
And I miss the way you kiss me

I know I’ve hurt you have driven you down
Beggin’ on my knees tell me what should I do
I just can’t get you off my mind
I can only smile when you were mine

(Repeat Refrain)
(Repeat Chorus)

(Repeat Chorus)

a sigh to the heavens

i was actually proud to see all my classmates participating into making wish lists and sending these to heaven..our class' main goal was to have WORLD PEACE..i knew secretly that WORLD PEACE didn't mean peace throughout the nations (but yeah,that would still work). BUT it actually meant that no war shall ever occur again inside AB-3.


five months later, the newtoons were spread apart and AB-3 has already found new students to nurture and train.

five months later, i guess some of the ballonos didn't reach heaven and God wasn't able to read that WE all wanted to have world peace. Or maybe it was because of the fact that we REALLY didn't all want to have world peace..

five months later, rifts were still present. some even wanted to see the other newtoon in his/HER graveyard at the age of 16 and 17. And i just think its so wrong.

five months later, i realized that i, too, have not forgiven about two to three persons inside that classroom..




But i don't want things to end like this. by next week, we'd all be starting on with our new life.. All newtoons (except jc, who'll be entering college on the 9th of July and riza, who won't study for college) would be treading on new original or imitated Converse shoes along unfamilliar corridors and still, the rifts have not yet disappeared.

Every second i spend looking at the death threats posted on our yahoo groups, i realize that if the rifts were not to disappear, it will grow bigger and bigger until it would be an impossible task to remove it. I'm afraid that it would be too late for us to mend things back again.


and all i could do is to post my feelings in a blog hoping that someday, my fellow newtoons would read this post (i doubt).


and the TRYING HARD STRIKES AGAIN.



i just wish, that on the 22nd day of December 2006, i didn't wrote on my own side of the ballon WORLD PEACE. i wish i had just written FORGIVENESS.. for there would be no world peace, if FORGIVING never happened.

sigh

The old gang

NEWTOONS: real life Cartoons

This wasn't a dramatic change. Actually, I expected everyone to sooner or later leave me. I learned this the hard way when I was still in third year. My bestfriend, Millicent migrated to Canada with her family.

YES, goodbyes are hurtful and could truely be a heartbreaking experience but this could also mean a chance to start a new for all the messed up things one has done or better yet, it could mean a whole new level of adventures (^_^) for one cannot move on without letting go.

So here I am posting another set of THANK YOU'S to the real life Cartoons who have let me out of my nutshell.

(haha, this will also be the last Thank you's i'll make for this bunch..i'll be going to college by next week na...haha...wish me luck)

note: i'll try na i alphabetize tong list,..TRY lang,hehe


Christopher Agbayani: though I never called you my DOM, you were the one who have been giving me free snacks all this years,thanks Chris!.. *huhu, how i wish you could read this

Emerson Agonoy: my DOM!!!!!!...thanks for the Centennial Walks and for trying to keep in touch kahit na ang tagal tagal kung mag reply sa'yo. (T_T) you're making your SUGAR MOMMY cry na.. If i'll find another guy in my life, you'll be the first to know,hehe

John Arbie Agbayani: Dude!.. i still hate you for not doing your last task on our thesis. Pero dahil dude kita, i'll bury it for the mean time. Gud luck sa UP manila.. I'll miss you,huhu..Ag load ka man met!pfft.

Paul Castro: hey!.. the perfect prince. Alagaan mu si Alog,ha? :)

Ed Von Cid: pfft.. ana?? hate you..tay debedek!...

P.S.: if ever you'll find a girl who'll stay with you, take care of her and never let go. han ka patorpe torpe.n...take the chance..and,..umm...FORGET CHAY ngaminen...

Carlo Esperanza: waa!!!!!!!!..nag bad ka.. stop keeping in touch with luigi na, tas if you REALLY REALLY REALLY love eula, be LOYAL >:)

Aldrich Limos: toinks, tay gf nga ibagbagam, ni carlo djay?..hehe.. joke..well, i wish ako un... thanks for giving me the secret formula of sugar, my GLUCOSE,haha...takE care of our jenny!

John Christian Lorenzo: ei, thanks for keeping in touch!.. message ko sa'yo? e ung dati parin syempre...learn to mingle with other people.. you might not find kind people like who takes the effort to make friends with wierd guys like you,hehe..

oh, and learn the HUMAN language, for christ's sake!...and stop using the word "KUDUS"!!!

Mark Czar Manangan: boiplen!...han ka unay aguy uyawen a,...and learn to be humble..ALWAYS!..stay religous,hehe...and keep away from drugs!

Marc Meinard Mariano: Still can't believe your not going to pursue your studies in UST..oh well, if you think Batac is your calling, then go for it!...don't ever ever forget our pact. (^_^)

Valentino PAscua IV: my last dance, sorry for sometimes, i let my anger on you. thanks for always trying to make me smile. i'll nver forget all the times we were forced to stay under one roof and having to endure hurricane after hurricanes of academic and extra curricular activities.. i'll nver forget you

Luigi Ramos: ei...don't go looking for guys in Manila, look for girls!..and by the way, i think you should reconcile with Faye na...kasi, she thinks she's dying na.. poor girl..it would mean a lot to her if you'd just say HELLO..

Denver Rosete: hoy, bakla!..hehe..just one sentence: stop looking for love for love finds its own way

Marie Nicole Adora: (x_x) don't worry, you'll survive college life.. don't get pregnant,hehe

ChaChie Agbayani: i hope your sexy na..i envy you

Ana Katrina Alog: waha!..sa states?????..pasalubong,ha

Jenny Apostol: whehe,di ta met ag gedgeddan ag unlin..i'l miss you

Aizel Arquillo: waa!..i heard la kang kasama sa iyong section..hmm..be amun, juray ta kadorm mo met latta ti newtoons..i'll always be your mommy kahit na you're taller than me,hehe

Loren Artajos: ei, stop looking for cute guys na,hehe...just be your true self and don't try to change to much.. thanks anyways for the fun times we've shared..juray nu ada flaws na dudduma,hehe...you're forgiven na.. :p

Rosalie Basilio: i honestly think you should be our SEX GODDESS,hehe

Bebot Bernabe: the ROCK STAR!!!!!!!...don't ever let go of that dream..mwahehehhe

Via Bulaun: hoy,bakla!...see you in school nalang,haha

Riza Cabaluan: when you get the chance, study in college,ok? (^_^)

Mary Ann Castillo: naka transfer kat things mon?

Ana Gliceria Castro: waa!...han ka pela agpapa arem ah?

ivon Claire Domingo: sing singpet kan,and study hard!...i wish we're friends na..

khaasie gapuzan: hehe,polsci?..so you plan to take up law and fulfill the class prophecy?..i know you can do it..for as long as you follow my steps and be the next Ms. Perfect..hehe..i doubt!

Roxanne Go: waa!..first time a di tan to ag kaseat mate.n..hehe..poor you,..are you still dealing with silut-era?..hehe...text text nalang!..

Faye Hortelano: waaaaa!..noone's going to die or going to get or going to be confined in a hospital?ok??..AJA!

Abegaile Martillano: hi, manila girl!..you're still a PROMDI dahil your HS friends are from the province, don't forget that,hehe...send me a vocalist naman..sayo nalang yung mga drummers..mwah!

Naomi MAteo: i really wish awan ag kiskissiw ton collge..and that you'll stop doing your annoying acts,hehe...

Guia Marcos: well, i've told you the problem already and i wish that by college, la na un,ok?..show your collge classmates the nice and sweet guia i met in high school (^_^)
*peace out!

Fenerose Miras: I wish i had the chance to get to know you better.. be acquiented with better people sa school mu.. i know you'll blend in easily!.. :)

JAn Eve PAscua: i'm secretly hoping to have a guinea pig...ited mon to kanyak ta anak ni JM,ah!

Chariz PAscua: anan...hmmm..nagtangsit ka metten..SORYY ah.. huhu

Hanna MAe Pedro: haha,it seems like we've got the same fate..batacers,here we come!

Myrelle Pinzon: anan,bai,...kanum i unli ta sim mo?????????]

Rhean Reyes: hehe,find a new love interest this collge years then we'll go back to the SSC library to make kwento..promise me that..

Tsugi Suigitan: hehe,frog!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...tnx for trying to make the cry baby me happy again..i love you ate...huhu..

aywen!..tay young blood ko!haha



*haha, it seems like i didn't make THANK YOU Messages but goodbye notes,hehe...

Hi's and Hello's

Introductions are always a knee trembling experience especially to shy people like me. But even though my stomach is making summersaults every time I have to say my unattractive name to unfamiliar people, I always try [yes, I’m a trying hard] to give my sweetest smile hoping deep inside that they didn’t notice that my name’s initials starts with a double F.

And because you wouldn’t be able to see my smile as, I hope you would be mesmerized by my carefully edited [and spelled] paragraphs of introduction.

First off, I think you should know some major things about me. Physically, I have the silky straight hair, pouty lips [is that a good thing? Umpf] ang big fat legs. But aside from that, I am proud to say that I have the biggest yet weakest heart you’ll ever see. I cry when I watch soap operas, I’ve fallen in love with my best guy friend, and I’ll do anything to make my friends smile. But aside from that, I have the biggest asset in live, I have God. [corny, but I’m truly religious, and you CAN’T change that]

HISTORY

I was once a girl hidden in her nutshell. But in my last years at Holy Spirit Academy of Laoag, receiving the First Honorable Award made me realize that I had potentials to be great even if I was a shy weak elementary girl hidden in the warmth of sisters in blue and white attires.

High School came and my endless quest to get out of the shell started. I met friends [and lost some], made enemies [because I was a Ms. Perfect], I made failures and victories, I cried and laughed, I fell in love and stood up again, and most of all, I conquered my quest.

Four years with my classmates that started as a set of 50 strangers that yearly lessened were the ones who saw the process that I had to go through. At the year 2007, only 41 existing Newtoons survived the wrath of being a student of one of the hundred Special Science Classses here in the Philippines. I came out as the Salutatorian of our batch.

NOW

But Salutatorian or not, in college, this things doesn’t matter. College is the great equalizer, they said. I maybe the second smartest at our class of 41 but I might be the least at a set of 100 freshmen accountancy students. And what makes this ‘MAYBE’ a fact? Because I was never good in math.

But I’m a fighter. I try hard to get what I want. I cry for it, pray for it, and most of all work of it. And if ever things wouldn’t work out as I would’ve wanted it to be, there will be other doors for me to venture into. But as of now, I’ve already chosen to test my fate in the world of wanna be ACCOUNTANTS.

And I’m here to show you how a TRYING HARD will work her way out from a new world of people, circumstances, events, and places.

Wish me luck (=^_^=)